Pay It Forward

Most people know that I try really hard to be positive but OMG this weekend was a really crappy weekend for me. I felt like I was ready to throw in the towel. Seriously, I felt like a Mack truck had ran over me, backed up and had the audacity to run over me again. LOL! Yes, I can laugh now. I must have come down with some type of virus last week while in KC. I knew my counts were low. When I arrived on Friday morning for Chemo they were way down. So low they didn't want to infuse but I begged as I know to get my chemos off schedule is hell. I already have to be off this week by a day due to my work schedule so I didn't want to mess this one up. So, they gave me a bag of antibiotics along with my chemo. Swollen lymph glands and all. I went to bed about 3:30 PM Friday with my computer and slept off and on all weekend. Yesterday, I began to feel human again but barely. Today I'm better but still not tjer yet. The L man is in HI and I have to say I'm really glad (even though I gave him a hard time) because I don't think I'm very good company to anyone. Thank goodness I don't have to leave on a trip until Wednesday. I honestly know there is no way I could have left yesterday or today on a trip. I'm just wiped out. I'm drinking up the vitamin C and all the good drugs I can.

Did you ever have a friend that you wished you could transport to you with the twitch of your nose? Well I have one in my friend Jane. I don't know how we became friends. How we hit it off, or what made us buds, but we are and I'm glad. I can tell her anything and we laugh, gosh can we laugh. And when I'm feeling my worse, she can make me laugh. Laying in bed, she'll see that I'm on Facebook and "chat" with me and make me laugh at the stupid stuff. I'm one lucky friend. I feel blessed and I hope all my friends are blessed with someone in their life like this. I'm actually surround with the best people. God has put all these people in my life. Who knew.

National Pay It Forward Day is April 29th. I've been trying to think of some great things to do that day. I try to do little things everyday. I've been blessed by so many kind things people have done for me that I can't pay back, so over the years I've always tried to pay forward by doing little things. This all started from the year that a package showed up at my door labeled from "TJ's Angles". Inside that package was check for 1000.00 for medical bills. A bunch of friends had heard that I was having a difficult time making my chemo payments and donated money for me. I promised from that day that I would pay it forward and I have. 2 years ago as I sat in a court room to prove I was innocent of a traffic ticket, the judge was reducing traffic fines on others and a gentleman went up and the judge said he was reducing the guy's fine to 15.60 and the guy said he didn't have it. The judge said well, he would have to raise it back to 200 and something if he couldn't find it in the next few minutes. I wrestled with myself as I knew I had the money. Finally I yelled out "I have the money for him". I walked up the the guy and handed him the money and all I said was "pay it forward". When it came time for me to go up the judge said "reduction of fine or deferred judification with fine - so it won't be on your record". I didn't want my insurance to go up. So I chose the deferred. As the bailiff took me to the side he said "the judge dismissed your case, see he signed it. Your were kind to help that young man. Keep paying it forward". I have continued doing it to this day. If you do one kind day and don't expect anything in return, just think of the benefits you will get. I try to smile at everyone I meet. Say a hello, see who says it back. The next time you see a young mother in the grocery line, you'll know which ones, offer to buy the baby food in her basket. Believe me, it will make you feel so good. Or the college student who is counting coins to buy groceries. That mother or college student may not be able to pay it forward now but years from now they might.